Thought I would give you an update on music and life. These last few months have been a slice of humble pie. There are a lot of really talented musicians which is both inspiring and demoralizing. I've been through the process of wanting to give up because I thought "what is the point?"
Since then, I've been able to work through some of my ego, face some realities and continue to move forward. I realize that my musicianship isn't the best comparing to all my juno winning teachers or other students. But here I am, I've got a style and a perspective that is unique. Besides, I wouldn't be at Humber if the professors who auditioned me didn't think I was capable.
The cool thing is that, God willing, I have a lot of time to develop my musical voice through songwriting, performance, arranging and everything else musical. I'm accepting where I am, enjoying it for what it is, and looking towards what inspires me.
Today I listened to some songs I wrote and recorded a rough copy of previously. A few months ago, I couldn't listen to them without my ego critiquing. Today, I see they've got potential, and it makes me excited. It makes me want to keep going and improving - but from the best place possible - where its a joyful pursuit of excellence focusing on where I get to aim for and achieve.
No demos today, but I will aim for something musical to share by the end of the year.